I'm starting to lose momentum today.... Honestly, I have got to get more exercise. I have been losing weight, but because of stress so it's not the good kind, and building muscle(whatever that awkward turn of phrase means).

Sure I have some good laundry and some organizing, that Was sorely needed around here. I'm in that funk where you don't exercise, and you start feeling like your kicking the endorphins.... Like a junky that needs a fix, but can't get the mojo going enough to go steal a T.V. to pawn to score that little bag of the Brown Poison to shoot down your veins... The sweet tap of the syringe....

But I digress..

Maybe some green Tea will keep my momentum going for a while....

Do some reading...

bowel movemnet stops me from exercising

I was hoping to get a hike in... after eating everything I could find all morning. I decided to call it off, I need some exercise... but I could also use a good Cleaning. I suspect once I start moving... I'll start moving internally.I think Ill just start some laundry... other stuff....

stupid I'm blogging about this...

hmmm maybe I should vacuum...

of course the first step would be to stop blogging and get it done.

ya ya ya.... Sorry to subject y'all to this post.....

eggs and sausage

I just had some eggs and sausage...

looks like it will be 9 or so before I go run or whatever....

I'm just not excited about working out anymore... Was I ever? .... My most recent complaint about cycling was that it takes so many hours... now my runs are going for an hour plus.. not including prep time....

my only other option to do with my time? research stocks...

Hope you all are excited for me...

I sleped in ..... Untill 4am..... WhooooHoooooo

What to do, what to do.......

watch a show about a Shoe.

Maybe I'll take a Poo...


Ok seriously...... nothing to do at 5:30 am... besides research investments in regional banks.

Notes on being tired

I'm amazed at how much stress I have. about 2pm I can bairly keep my head up.at one point over then next few hours suddenly crash and sleep fitfully till about 2am. It's rough to exercise when your that tired. I only feel like I have the energy in the morning.........

I have to figure out how to work out today....... Maybe if I eat some pancakes or something...

To be honest I just want about 2 more hours of sleep and feel refreshed...

ILLEn

Ok blog your going to get some whining.... sorry..... please skip if your not interested in hearing me whine like a little bitch

I'm so Fucking Tired...... People who get 5 hours of sleep a night just amaze me... I've gotten 8-10 hours every night for years..... with the exception of those insomnia nights.... it's 5:30 pm and I'm fighting to stay awake.... but the first episode of "house" is on tonight and I need to stay up... but I bet I fall asleep in the middle.........

I got on my bike today... I'm doing a little better about working out. I ran on saturday.. 4-5 miles, then monday morning I did like a short mile or so. then I got on the bike today.... but only 7 miles..... I wanted to vomit the whole time.... my body is just worked... there is a big hill on my short route and I totaly chickend out...

Getting up at 2-3 am SUCKS!!!!

I just may have to tape "House"

Morning update

Fluoride Damages the Thyroid, Report Shows

Check that out...

The gyst of it is that Fluride is bad for your thyroid. which explains alot of the thyroid problems of our population.

Maybe this will be fun

I've decided on a new feature on the blog:

I've been watching a lot of soft core porn. Why? You ask? Well I get up at 2am and that is when The Movie Channel is running their soft core selection. This and check out the European markets, It's very weird and i'm sure i'll develop some strange sexual Fetish over it. Like sex on London spot gold.... something.

So, I've decided to start reviewing it.

Stolen Sex Tapes:

This does try and not be a Soft core. Well, it's funny there are those soft core porn movies that are edited to be soft core. This movie actually tries to be a movie. Now, I'll not bore you with details about the story or how hot the actresses are. There was a story, though weak, something about a politician and this videotaping T.V. anchor who has some sex tapes stolen as she it trying to take herself National.(wait didn't I say I wasn't coming up with story details). There is even a moral at the end, something about the news industry being degrading... this all coming out of the mouth of a porn actress... umn... IRONY. maybe it's just a parable for the porn industry in the news industry.... by the porn industry...

But I digress. The sex was a little short Re: less than 3 minutes of simulated sex. Seems like the fact that they were approaching this movie as such a serious endeavor, seems like the acting and cinematography took a big hit. With some shots over grasping the ability of everyone involved.

Overall, I give it a "B"

That's fairly good, it's been a long time since i've seen a "B" soft core, mostly "C" and "D" on The movie channel... and the rarity of an "A", almost unheard of.

Ok, this is all I have.

Update

I'm not psyched about giving out an update on my life...... Cause that's not fun. Umnnnn. I wish I was doing more this weekend but it's been raining, and last week just worked the hell out of me.

I started running again, and I'm actually getting "Adequate". I changed the way I was running, and it has helped me relax. I managed 4-5 miles and my joints aren't killing me... and my muscles are sore...... Which is great... much better than spending 2 days licking my wounds, as I usually do... if the weather is a light Sunday, I will manage some miles on the bike.

I'm kind of Psyched to go see Resident Evil:Armageddon.

I know this post is kind of lame, but I wanted to reward people for coming by to visit with something. I am working on my fishing post, but I'm very obsessed with looking at the 73 83 90 recessions.

Oh!, The sweet Taste of Her Tears

are they so sweet because I'm a Petty asshole

Or

Is it because I've been there, at the age of 24

and I'm hoping this gives her enough of a reality check

to straighten her shit out.

(i'm thinking Petty asshole)

The beleaguered pop star was charged Friday with two misdemeanor counts, hit-and-run causing property damage and driving without a valid California license, stemming from a minor Aug. 6 smashup in a Los Angeles-area parking lot, the L.A. City Attorney's Office confirmed to E! News
..............
Despite the strict and detailed instructions from the court, Spears has already been spotted out and about at an assortment of Hollywood nightspots.
But while it's too soon to tell whether Spears' yen for partying affects her family ties, her career comeback is still on schedule, according to her record label.
After she was publicly dropped by manager Jeff Kwatinetz, of the Firm in L.A., on Monday, Jive Records said it's still eyeing a Nov. 13 release date for Spears' new album.

Fuck

It's my favorite... Insomnia

If your lucky, I'll be finishing up my weekend fishing report. Honestly, I'm trying to get to sleep. There was a nap at 9 or 10 for an hour or more. Unfortunately I woke up at 10:30.... so here I sit, I did make a cup of soothing tea, sitting next to me.. it would be nice if that helped... The worst part is I'm starving for some Pie, or doughnuts.
I seem to have some kind of sinus infection. Need to shave... Just saying.. If the Dow futures were down I'd be to excited to sleep, and since they are just barley down, now I'm nervous.

SMBL - Smart Balance transfat free margarine.... Wow, they have a whole line of products. I may switch from butter.

Traffic

To do list, to get out of town

Groceries:
eggs
potato's
propane.
onion
Snackies
Aluminum foil.

What am i going to do about lunch...... maybe some fruit...

Cooler

Fill water.

Inventory Packs

Pack clothing
2 Pants
3 shirt
socks

Pay bills

Check car:
Oil, radiator.

Fishing

I'm trying to finish my fishing story......

Let me start by talking about Fly fishing. I was introduced to Fly-Fishing as a young man, but it's not like my dad Fly fished. A friend did it, and I had a chance to experience fly fishing with him during a trip to Yellowstone. The compelling part of it was that it wasn't boring.
After University, I was re-introduced. At a very impressionable time for me. That first trip started out at "Western rivers fly fisher". My buddy trying to convince me to drop $200 for one trip, buying $50 in flies $30 in tapered Leader, $80 sun glasses..... and on and on and on. Well Though intimidating, I made it out only spending $10 in flies and $10 in tapered leader. The pricey nature of this, just flat out sounded LAME!!!. My buddy and I borrowed, what I called a Pole, from another friend of ours. This friend then Tied up our Tapered leader and tippet to the rods, Showed us the Blood Knott. Rods fully strung we left town at the crack of 10pm for the 2 hour drive to the river. This was the Craziest thing I'd ever heard of, showing up at noon, unable to tie our own rods, no idea what I was doing.
That first trip I remember spending hours untying knots pondering if this was even possible. Then it occurred to me that what I should do is not try and Cast, and just sort of flip the fly a short distance....

(let me also provide an aside here, I was HIGH as a Kite. I'm not advocating this for anyone, I feel as though I waisted a lot of my young adulthood on getting High. I enjoyed it, but overall it was not good for me.)

Being as altered as I was, for about 2 hours after that, I was in the "Zone". Literally visualizing the Ecosystem, and the fly and the fish in that system, trying to "Game" the fish into taking that fly, trying to notice the variation in the strike indicator(yes we were nymphing). I managed to get a few bites.... But I was officially hooked.
As I do, After that, I went to the library, pulled every fly fishing book I could find, Scanned through all of them, and bringing home an arm full. Which I then Consumed.

I then Returned to the water with a scrounged up Fiberglass Fly fishing Pole, Automatic reel. 7 dollar floating Weight forward, 10 or 12 LB line(which balanced out that Reel quiet well). 2-6x tapered leader(killing me at $8 each). 10 dollars of purchased and scrounged up flies from Kmart. Pair of Levi pants, Army boots for wading. Also, I started reading the books of John Gierach. I started fishing the spring Streams of Utah alone. After a month, I managed to somehow Catch a Fish, Using the most ridiculous little domestic house fly looking thing.
After fighting High stream flows, and settling into catching one fish in about 3 trips. High summer settled in, and I purchased a spare $20 rod and real from K-mart and started inviting other people to go with me.
I was working Temp Jobs, I'd work for a couple days, then take off all weekend, and just fish and drink beer, smoke a little dope. At high summer I could cast 10 feet. By late summer I could knock a beer can off a car at 20 feet. Though I had read many times about "Drag Free Drift." I finally had mastered and understood that, "Holy Biblical Truth of Fly fishing". I started buying Flies at actually "Fly Fishing Stores", understood the concept of "match the Hatch". I had been to the "Green River" twice, which in My opinion, is the "university of Fly-fishing".
That fall, I froze my ass off, Wader-less as I tried to fish the icy fall rivers. And was managing to catch one fish per trip, minimum.
Over the winter, I managed a couple of snow bound fly fishing trips, purchasing canvas waders from K-Mart for $20. By spring I was absolutely suffering, I had been bit by the fly-fishing bug, and it needed a fix. That spring, I put a brand new Fly Rod, on layaway at Anglers Inn for $400, I had wanted to buy a nice Winston for $250, but it was gone, and I settled on a more expensive Sage 590SP+ which was the last year they made the SP+, which is just a little "Crisper" than the SP. I absolutely love that Rod, that was the best money I ever spent.
I will never forget the year I spent, fishing almost every weekend, in a pair of Jeans, with a Fiberglass rod, and automatic Real....
It took me 2 years to be able to afford a Reel that properly Balanced it, but I did find a $40 one that took care of me for quite some time.
I still have never purchased an $80 pair of sunglasses, never paid over $80 for waders. my Vest apparatus and jacket, I scored on Clearance the vest for $20 and my jacket for $30.
At my Apex, I could throw a quality cast 60'.

So, Labor day I made it out for the first time this fall. Saw some amazing water, absolutely pulling the fish in, one after the other. Since I do, "catch and release" when I decided to keep a 20+ inch fish, I managed to, first chase him around for about 5 minutes. Then managed to lose him when I awkwardly tried to pluck him out of the river. I'm certainly happy he lived to fight another day.

Sadly, the old Fiberglass Rod was smashed in the tailgate of my truck a few years back when my Spastic Cousin, smashed both it and my Sage. In a Careless, Rushed move to get on the river a few Years back. I almost Cried. The Sage had a Warranty, but that old Fiberglass Rod, was absolutely priceless with the memories of that fist season, it was my one constant companion, as I traipsed around Idaho utah and colorado, trying to find myself and get turned in some kind of direction, at the age of 24.

Outdoor gear shopping....

I have ten zillion tons of outdoor gear...... Tons of it. I'm that guy you know who has 20 fleece jackets..... but I kid you not... I've never spent more than $25 for one, and usually $15-20. I have 3 kick ass sleeping bags(never spent over $100), 2 half ass tents(<$50), 1 great tent($50). 3 pairs of fleece pants, cook stoves, lightweight cooking gear(I'm still working on the perfect Titanium set.).... I literally swim in this crap.....

But here is the trick....

Off season buying... Right now, your looking for summer gear. Shorts, base layers, Trail running shoes, Summer Tents... This stuff is being closed out to bring in the fall and winter gear..... This is very hard to do, and to have great gear waiting 9 months to use is tough, the thing is it's 70% off right now. I can spend $50 on summer gear right now and it is the same as spending $200 next summer.

Point being, i've never paid retail, nor have I ever purchased "This Years" model..... I think I learned this when I used to shop for ski's.. This years and last years ski's are just a different paint job usually.... and they would rather sell it to you at cost than have to pull it off the shelves.

I just picked up a killer pair of trail shoes that retail $90 for $20... Heck!!! I pay that for regular shoes....

seems like I'd be waisting a lot of money for 9months, but once that 9 month turn around hits, you realize what a great thing you did, that and you don't waist any time shopping early in the season.

4am update

I am all dressed to go fishing this morning.....

and that took just enough out of me to tell me that I need to try and get some sleep....

I'll be curling up under the blankies for a while....

Like anyone gives a shit.....

My mind needs a refuel. I could get it on the river.... but I'm just exhausted... maybe Sunday morning....

going to take some antacids and lay down...

I went to bed about 9pm..

now I'm up at 1am....

sometimes I wish I had a guitar or something to pluck till I got back to sleep.

What else is new.......

On some reflection, I've decided to drink a beer. I need some good sleep. I'm doing a good job of keeping my priorities straight... get sleep when I can. Make sure I eat healthy, get some exercise..

I'm still hoping to get some fishing in. I'm not sure when and how. I had hoped to get some good sleep and get up at 3 or 4 am... but that probably isn't' going to work now.

Hennin pulled it out against Venice, one amazing game. even if it only went 2 sets... Venice should be proud.

My girl Justine

She is fighting it out with Venice Williams.... it's amazing. I'm totally freaked out by it. I spent the day watching the economy fall out of it's drawers. But I"m freaked out for my girl.....

Com'on you can do it.....

even better is how great a match it is.....

Lucky to be able to watch....

Ridiculous that the US Open is run in night matches all the way up to the mens quarterfinal, and the women's semi-final.....

Coffee is on

I got some killer sleep. Andy Roddick got the beating he was looking for. it only went 3 sets, but was overall a great game. I was proud to be rooting for him.... Yes, I've picked Federer.... but you have to root for the home town boy. My biggest complaint is that ... Well Andy needs to wear a smaller shirt.... I know you want to think your a large... but your not Andy, your a medium. It's more a reflection on how tubby America is, that it is about your physical prowess.

Serina, said that hennin was lucky when, when serina beat her 7-6 6-1. Hate to say, but 6 games of luck.... sure only 2 service breaks... but lady you got beat....

US Open

If roddick can't pull off this third set.... I'll get to go to bed early. I'm completely exhausted, not getting enough exercise... going to have to start running... Today just killed me with "mother market" and it's killing my health. I'm making money.. With getting up at 4am and staying up to midnight watching tennis....

Com'on Roddick... make me suffer.....

Erin Burnett....

"If the economy is a Sunday, and the credit market is the ice cream and the stock market is the cherry. Don't you have a problem if the ice cream is melting...."

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!

If the economy is your closet, and the stock market is your suit jacket..... and the closet burns down, and all you have left is the one on your back..... isn't that a problem....

If you could stop talking.... Umn Ya, that would be great....

(P.S. this was supposed to be posted to my Stock blog http://buyingthetop.blogspot.com/)

morning coffee

for some reason I just couldn't get coffee going this morning. going to be one of those days.

New Titles for the stock blog.

CubsandCows
cows and teddybears
SlowMoney
taking it in the ass
if there is blood on wallstreet, it's probably mine.
capitulation
Lamb on wallstreet
BuyingTheTop

I think Buying The Top, just won. I like Lamb on wallstreet..... I may grab that just for fun.

Every once in a while, I wonder what the hell I"m doing with the blog....

today in Mother market, I just eked out a small gain..... Which is lame, when the whole market was just killing it with 3-5% gains everywhere I looked. Gold is making amazing moves, that I'm missing out on. I still say one more day of bull run, except that we saw a solid pull back of the whole index in the last 15 minutes. Hopefully we don't start down tomorrow, worst case we have a "Flat" day.

I am just bummed with a 1% gain. This stuff makes me want to chase other gains, which is absolutely the wrong thing to do. My current plan is to wait for the slow down and prep for a Pull back.

Talk is sometimes about the Polar opposites in the economy/market between Fear-Greed. A good rip tomorrow would be a greed day.

I just have to remind myself to keep my nuts under me..... Don't chase, look for the new moves.

My girl Justine is taking on Serina williams tonight in the USOpen.

Still trying to come up with a name for the stock blog

Game On!!! again

I think I'm going to create a stock blog, Not sure that I should mix this stuff. I need a cool name for it.

This morning I need to calender this weeks economic data, and go through the technicals.....

I've been thinking about bio-tech this morning....

Coffee and some food....

.... On Bikes

The plan was to do a little mountain biking for a couple of hours in the afternoon on Saturday. My morning had been a Hectic mess trying to get all my gear for a Mountain bikeing, fly fishing, camping extravaganza......

I must Preface by talking about how much "Gear" I have. I'm not a "Sucker" for "gear", I don't have every little Gizmo, I can find or I see at the store or catalogue. I like to Discount, and Closeout shop, you will never see me buy a $400 Powder Jacket. Or Ultra-Fleece. High Tech Shell. I'm good with not looking like a bad ass, but I do need the gear to work. Getting back to my point, I have more outdoor recreational gear than I have Regular everyday clothing. I have 3 sets of thermal underwear, I'm lucky I have 3 pairs of boxer shorts. I have 10 Fleece jackets, I don't have 3 dress shirts. I have 6 pairs of convertible pants, I don't have 3 decent pairs of slacks. I have enough bike gear to fill my Car, and have no room for a bag clothing.
As I was packing my shit, and realized I had enough clothing for 7 days, to be out 2 nights with the biking gear and fishing gear.... Well it took me all morning to get packed, and couldn't imagine how I got more than a car load. About 10-11am I realized if I didn't just accept that there was crap I would probably need, that I was going to leave home, I'd never get out of the house.
I did do some mountain biking a few years back, like many adults, I did start cycling on one. But my Mountain bike leaves a lot to be desired as a 2 wheeled vehicle. When I purchased my Road bike I had realize that I needed new rims, and had pretty much road the Bearings off of my Mountain bike, it's been shelved ever since, realistically trying to convince someone to take it off of my hands.
When I was invited to go on this trip, It's not like I was going with some serious Mountain bikers, to be kind it was more a weekend warrior type of person. Though a very fit person. I was assured that a reasonable Mountain bike would be available to me.
There we are pulling into the Trail Start for this bike ride.... and I hear the Fatefull words... "we have a little maintenance to do before we start..."
A sigh could be heard as the wind..... What wind is in my sails for a 30 minute high cadence Trail Scaring bike ride..... Exited my lungs,
"Ya, I don't know anything about mountain bikes.".... Prity much a bike is a bike.... but this was my way of saying..... Fuck.
As we pumped up up the tires with a 6 inch hand pump, and I exclaimed how I had my floor pump in my car, and had someone notified me about the "maintenance". I actually could have brought some tools.
"oh it will be fine, we just need to get these tires pumped up."
Getting a solid 30 lbs of pressure in the tires, I mounted the "Beast" and took it for a spin. Coming back 2 minutes later... My only comment was... "Mountain bikes are really fucking stupid", as half of the watts from every peddle stroke was taken up in the front and rear fluid suspension. We then got the seat adjusted, some adjustment in the shifting...... We then changed bikes....
Instead of borrowing that bike, someone who's bike we had didn't show up, so we switch up that the other bike which had a larger frame......
30 more minutes of Adjustment, and tweaking, we again were underway... with me commenting "this is funky, I'm not sure how this is supposed to feel.". Underway, we ride about 5 minutes, I stop a few times to get the shifting to adjust a single gear each time I shifted. Then trying to master how a Mountain bike shifts. At that point we hit our first hill, I'm literally struggling, The bike won't go into 80% of it's gears, I'm stuttering and struggling trying to find an acceptable gear. Then realizing I had about 4 rear gears and 2 fronts. I absolute struggle, wondering if My lack of sleep, or some massive blockage in my Cardiovascular system was about to put me down for the Count. Suddenly we hit a 15% Grade, and I pull off.... "There is no fucking way." We start tearing through the bike, I'm still playing possum, because.... working with this shitty bike with crazy MTB gear on it, No decent tools, looking for a bottle cap to use as a skrewdriver.... and I've hit my Lactic acid threshold a couple of times, I'm just laying up wondering why if your as bad a mechanic as this you don't take your bikes in to get them fixed. We mess with it for 10 more minutes, and finally we give up, decide to get back to where we have some tools.
Back at the car, finally I step up and just start tearing through it. Get the limits adjusted, then get the front derailleur adjusted. Realize that the big ring has a huge dent in it, and the cables are half an inch to long. and the chain is about 3 links to long. 30 minutes later, I have it all dialed in. and it actually does what I ask. I shift, it shifts. I pedal it goes forward.... Oh!!! also the disk brakes were dragging...... Then
The bikes proper owner shows up, after I show him all the improvements, and talk to him about how he needs to have it maintained by a mechanic... to which he responds "it was a rental", I'm like... ya, but it wasn't getting into 80 percent of the gears, you didn't realize that was a problem.. suddenly. He wants to ride it. .... At that moment I wanted to reach down and tear the rear derailleur off his bike.....
Now there I am working on the back up bike, instead of tearing through it for 2 hours. I was like... Fuck this lets go make camp, and we will ride in the morning.
8am, I tear through the bike and I still can't get it. every time I apply any decent power it starts skipping, then when I take the power off it skips again.... so, that was it. either the frame or dropout was bent. or the derailleur was fucked.
My buddy was like, just suffer through it... I was like, piss on that....

I'm not sure, but I think I must apply so much power to the bike that it drives me nuts to have it shifting around on me. Also it is a nightmair to bear down on a climb and have the bike fucking with your cadence, and rhythm.... course to my buddy that was my problem. So fuck it, I went fishing, and was sad that I didn't bring my road bike, or borrowed a bike that I knew, and could realy tune days before.

On MTB, On Fishing, On camping

Tent and Sleeping bag are airing out in the breezeway, I'm trying to get some down-time going. After what wasn't a "Perfect weekend" but was still enjoyable. There were Bears, Blonds, Brown Trout, Beers, Back-Country, Bikes....oh, and a baby(cringe) To be honest how could it be bad.

I'm going to work up a good post.....

And Congrats to Burke, who pulled of another great finish at the US Pro's compeating for the honor of being the best U.S. Cyclist. Showing once again, his Elite status on Two Wheels With a top 10 finish, Smoking some of the greats in the international field.....

Well Now!!!!!!

Hello everyone,
As I got up this morning, and was perusing the news.... I realized that my friend.... My Buddy. Mr. Burke (T-bird) Swindlehurst is riding in the Pro Championships in Greenville, South Carolina. Funny thing is he told me, and I had my head so far up my ass I didn't realize that this is the weekend that a new U.S. Road and Time Trial Champions are going to be Crowned. Currently held by George Hincapie, and Dave Zabrisky. Hopefully Dave is feeling better after his fading showing at La Tour.
Big ups for Jeff Louder, Phil Zajicek, Levi Leipheimer( AKA if I was only on a better team, that gave me more support, and had provided Discovery, with an American Tour winner, maybe they would have found, or renewed their sponsorship...... Leipheimer(Ya, america is petty like that, if your going to get the big American Dollars, you need to provide a big American Winner), Saul(banging Dave's sister(I knew there was a reason he was training here(this is the best place in the U.S. to train wasn't cutting it)) Raisin.

OK, POINT BEING. GO GET'M BURKE!!!!!!! Let's Git'er Done. GET FOCUSED!!! GET CENTERED and MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!

I'm just saying....

I'll be disappointed.....

but you don't answer to me!!!

sorry I couldn't find any pics from this year...

But, all 4 of my readers, send some good MOJO his way.


Unfortunately I'll be flyfishing and kicking the mtb this weekend..... I won't be able to follow it till Monday... hmmm maybe I can set up the cellphone.