Monday, December 31, 2007

Super Nerdyness

So, I have umn... this ridiculous fascination with the special forces, mix that with my nerdy nature and I love anything military and space..... In the mid 90's when I was going to school and not watching TV, I caught a few episodes of space above and beyond, and couldn't' watch it since I was fairly busy. But I loved the damn thing. Now with the Internets and the interTubes, this show is available now on DVD.

It's completely, Melodramatic, and overly .... It's just way over the top... But I find it over the top like one would find an opera, or other representational art form.... It's just the lamest thing in the world that it didn't last more than one season. It was on fox back in the early fox days, and they had a hard time finding it's audience.


" Anyone worth a Chig's ass will take responsibility for asking themselves, then answering, 'Who am I?' and, 'What's the point?'

"My name is Colonel Tyrus Cassius McQueen. But I know nothing of who I am. The answer, I feel, is near. The defining, perhaps final, moment, is close. Everyone -- everyone in this life knows when The Moment is before them.

To turn away is simple.

To ignore it assures survival.

But it is an insult to life,

because there can be no redemption, no second chance. Beyond death there's nothing. Just darkness... and cold. "The instant his existence was confirmed, every action, every breath of my life, became horrifyingly clear. He's out there tonight, sending our women, our men, to that cold, dark place. And nothing -- nothing -- will stop him, until I face The Moment."



Sunday, December 30, 2007

Bag of cookies

I'm trying to not suck down a bag of cookies right now, I'm not sure I have a bag of cookies... In fact, I don't, but I could consume a ton of other crap trying to pacify my desire for a bag of cookies.

I apologise, I'm going to be withdrawing(I hope) from all the sugar from the past few weeks, and I may have to use the blog to get me through.

Damn...
Hmmmm, more apples? some soup? I could use a beer. PB&J?

Rocco Deluca

I dismissed this band because of it's tie to Kiefer Sutherland, but then someone else got me to give a second look..... and I think it's possible Kiefer and his Music company have some taste.

Lazy weekend

I've managed to spend the bulk of my weekend watching documentaries, organizing my MP3s and refilling my soda, reestablishing my zen/Shockra flow. And re-establishing my good heath with liberal doses of oranges, apples, and Tea.

Every once in a while the clarity of how my life is built around a few things:
  • Building my Physical Health
  • Building Mental Health.
  • Keeping things organized
  • Increasing my knowledge.
  • keeping myself fed.

and that is my life, centers on it's no wonder that I have little time for much else.

every once in a while, things do click together and I feel like I'm in a fairly beautiful groove in my life.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

food

Every year I do a very good job about avoiding nasty Holidays food. All the crap that gets brought over, I tend to toss or give to someone else.... You would think that with all the "I hate Christmas stuff" I wouldn't get anything..... But I do.... Maybe it's the Toffee. Overall I didn't eat the paint off the walls, so I guess that's good. BUT.. I just did a lousy job, and now I'm addicted to all that crap, I'm finding myself looking for chocolate, or some sugar, Something...

It's very hard to get myself back to eating the fruit, and decent stuff I'm used to.....

and have I mentioned my colon......

Side note, I have always had a weakness for Peanuts, pecans, and pistachios... especially in the shell... umn

Also, I refuse to step on a scale.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

El Bike

I picked up some bearings for my rear wheel, I cleaned them over the summer and one was dragging, and I couldnt find a replacement.

I found some and just tried them out... and they are the wrong size.... so I did a web search and found this place... good prices on bearings...

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Well now

I think this whole sarah thing has me in it's clutches. Not like I havn't moved on for the most part, I think one just has hopes of a re-evaluation on her part. Which is stupid...

I just wrote this email to a friend of mine:

Maybe I can share…. I am feeling in a sharing mood, I was working on the blog then … you mailed…. So sarah has a new bo, which has gotten to me.

This woman I have been dating, It’s absolutely cyclical, every time I spend time with her I feel exactly the same things, I realize how wrong we are together. It is a series of “I don’t like you, you just agree with me, Your lying about how you think the same things I do. And we in no way connect on any but the most superficial ways. I don’t even get why she likes me, besides my constant pecking about how poor the quality of her life is, and how uninteresting, and uninspired, and unfulfilled it is, and a life of random bouncing like a pinball game, at the whim of the winds, and almost completely underpowered
All of this yet again leaves me with with slim relationship possibilities. But But But But……I am getting to the point where I have some idea what I’m looking for I guess, that is good, yet I’m not sure I’ll find it. and yet apparently I’m supposed to go out and look some more… but I’m not that interested in investing the time into it.


alright, i'm fucking tired and want to get some sleep

Cause aparently I've opened up

....Apparently Sarah has a new man in her life.... rough to opine about that one.

I just went on one of those splurges of cycling blog reading.... it's interesting how things change, and stay the same. I'm super happy for art, and his new girlfriend...that makes me super happy for him.

Ugh........... I'm all nostalgic now....... Need to HACK that up like a hairball and hide it back under the bed.

Honestly, its time to get back on the bike....

Oh!!! I woke up on christmas, and my knee was killing me, it was just stiff, from sleeping in a wierd position.... but i felt like lancelot "It's the old wounds, m'lord"

what is it with cyclists and gangster, hipster talk...... one of these days when someone says "The Bird" I'm going to snap and punch them in the face..... how is that for centered.

aw damn

Burke Just mentioned my last Christmas shenanigans...

what is interesting is that I've been nostalgic for last year.... I had a ton of fun,

even though I only got Julie's to her on valentines..... I was out looking for some proper snowshoeing gear tonight, and also saw a copy of "The big Lebowsky" and couldn't help but think about the Local "Dude".

I also this year thought about doing the semi-surprise thing again..... But I wanted to try to ditch even the candy making out of Christmas.... Though I did make a batch or 6 with my yogi Cousin. it started with 2, then my cousin was so excited about it that it escalated.

I also keep pondering how to write up some kind of apology to Karen...

Further notes: I miss the old blog, or the way I used to blog, hopefully I'll settle into my life as it is soon, and I'll get back to regular time on the bike, and regular fitness. But my life is very different, which is part of the reason for the change in tone for this blog.

Work in progress........

Point being: I miss things too.

I just read the post in Sly's blog about how he didn't need to go to jail for Christmas...... I think about everyone knows where I stand on that one. But my guess is it wouldn't have been the first time....

You see what adults do is back charge him on the credit card, if your so inclined. But if I broke a window at every hotel that didn't have wifi i've been to.....
another option, and I've done this too, is if a hotel isn't clean enough or have their crap together, you don't stay there. Walk in the room, realize it's a dump and leave. Explain that it's not satisfactory to management, and cancel payment if they don't refund you completely There is no court in the land that if you go into a hotel room and decide it's not clean, and you leave without staying. But butt monkey wants to throw rocks like a child.
I think I've been stuffed for 3 days..... Ugh... I'm ready to switch off to bread and water rations.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

It keeps crossing my mind the metatative capacity of learning to play the guitar...

and for only 59.95......

I don't know, I'd almost like to be like les stroud... since bear has fallen out of favor.

I just read the Wiki entry for les.... what an interesting guy..

there is a documentary called Snowshoes and Solitude that he is in.

The results are in...

here is my holliday score...

1 regifted ab-slider
1 set of towels
$50

Whoooohooooo

Oh.... just a note.... My Jesus loving brother, is the first one to have smartened up and not purchased me anything...... Yes, it's the True meaning of christmas...which as a cristian he should understand the best.........

but doesn't not buying christmas presents, make the baby jesus cry!!!

Now, I do have other gifts from past years that I've not opened... I could just regift them from year to year.
4 more hours and 1 movie left.....

I actually intended to rebuild one of my wheels today... but didn't .....

Monday, December 24, 2007

I saw a Documentary about "Pink Floyd"... I'm a huge fan of pink floyd... and honestly I'm going to recreate my youth one day and get super high and drop lsd, put myself in a sensory deprivation tank an I.V. and just trip out for 10 hours to O.G. Floyd albums.

So, syd Barrett, roger waters, david gilmour.......

What a bunch of Asshole Retards... in that order.

Syd Barrett was the heart of the band, even through the 1980's. and as his influence wore off, so did the quality of the band.

Piper at the gates of dawn
saucerful of secrets
more
ummagumma
atom heart mother
meddle
obscured by clouds.

all great albums

then we digress
dark side of the moon(I know it's a fucking classic)
animals
the wall
(all are good, but not great)

Then....

Wish you were here
final cut
momentary laps of reason

which have some good tracks

and the Worst fucking Floyd Album
The division Bell.....
Which BTW I have never made it through......
Wholy shit it's bad..... Probably needed more dance tracks, you fucking hacks.

WHAT I'M getting at.
David Gilmour... Get over yourslef, Sure Roger Waters is a better artist than you(Though the meloncoly tortured artist stuff, got LAME. Where is the ALBUM about the Banality of the tortured artist, especialy the over pampered Crybaby Rockstar.(further note, no one did it better than Jim Morrison, and he had the honor to die from drug abuse,at least), but your both a couple of Bull's nut sacks, compaired to the early work.
I'm getting hits for "Christmas bullshit"..... Welcome.....I hate christmas too.

joy-ass day

Well, it's almost over.... only 13 more minutes till eve is done then just 24 hours...... then I just have jan 1 to get through.......





Yippeeee....





has it been everything I expected.......





ohhhh and more... I saw 3 car accidents when I needed to go buy a book the other day. 5 or 6 angry drivers out when my mother asked me to go looking for shirts for my father.......





What a joyfull time......





you Christmas people are CRAZY!!





If there was a Jesus, he would come down and tell you people "Buy 3 gifts." spend no more than $5 each.




and the lord Commanded, "and on my psudo birthday you will run up huge credit card bills buying Wii and big screens"



Saturday, December 22, 2007

Crazy Famly christmas bullshit.

One of the main reasons I hate Christmas, is of course that my family is not enjoyable to be around.

I get a phone call.

My father,"it's not fair that you get to ignore Christmas".

ok, there are a few possible replies to this...

"Why not? you have ignored Christmas for 50 years. At best you gave mom $5 for each of your kids, and sent her on her way. and you have been doing that since 1970. And the only reason that Christmas ever happened was because mom worked and you leached both off her time and energy... You lazy narcissistic asshole."

Or

" Listen, Why the fuck would I want to spend 5 extra minutes with you ever. I know for some fucking reason you have become hopped up on chocolate, become manic. And now for some reason you think you can call me and tell me to buy a bunch of shit for relatives that I can't stand."

or
Just dial tone him, let him not call back.... I know why I don't answer the phone.

True story, my dad was very excited when he could go to the dollar store and buy everyone tire gauges for Christmas.... ones so cheap, they never actual worked.... But he went through the motions.....

Yep, I'll never have kids, I'll never take care of anyone Else's kids..

What my dad is pissed about is that he has to find something for his wife (she has done all of "Their" Chrismtas shopping), he has no idea what she would want since he is unaware of anyone but himself.

I hate this holiday..

Friday, December 21, 2007

Notes from the vacancy

... I just looked that phrase up and apparently, it's mine exclusively.

Umn... I'm not sure what it means... but it feels right.

So, Had a little date this evening.... does it help my case that I decided to rinse my mouth out with Peppermint Schnapps??? Just asking. It was just like mouth wash... I wonder if it's cheaper.

Decided a couple of things:
I've dated this woman for quite some time. Seems like, cyclically I realize why, I don't want to hang with her. First of all, we don't connect... at all. I've thought that connecting in a very personal level was nearly impossible. But besides explaining how T.V. ruins peoples ability to focus... and overall Ruins their ability to think, or act in rational ways... Which she agrees with, but only cause I'm super smart and snobby, and she likes that.
My overall point is that I'd like to connect with her on some kind of real personal level.

So... Second... She has a kid, But seriously.... Could she just shut the fuck up about her kid... and if it's not the kid it's her god damn ex husband... .Wow two subjects I don't want to talk about.
Ok, not to be a snob about kids, But Damn... could she get a hobby. Damn how uninteresting "my son, sat and made cardboard ornaments for 3 hours."...... how about the fact that we talked about it for 2..... Lady your kid is like 5 it's time to let the leash out a bit.

I guess that makes me an asshole for not wanting to spend 99% of my conversation talking about shit her kid did.... It's hard to feign excitement....

Besides my diatribe ..... or excepting it.

I've decided I'm becoming more "enlightened"... sure, I have my moments...

  • I'm tending to trust my instincts more.
  • I tend to be more accepting.
  • I'm more in the now.
  • I also tend to not see things how I want them to be.

it's interesting.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Update

Myspace is stupid

My life

so, My life is a study in monotony... things are quiet, and calm and steady.

but I've had my yogi cousin around, which was super fun. Strange how we have, sort of connected, I try and avoid being a mentor.

I gave a 10 minute oration on herding mentality. that is how fun it's been.
but it all has been a distraction to my banal life.

but it's going to be nice to get back to the usual.

I downloaded how the Grinch stole Christmas.... going to watch it now.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Yippee

I umn.... I'm hating christmas.... 6 more days..... Just trying to hang on through it till it's over, without going on some kind of baby Jesus rampage.

Let's all remember, Not supporting Corporate America makes the baby Jesus cry.

May be time to throw all the junk food out, and switch back to soup, salad and fruit.
HOW THE GRINCH STOLE CHRISTMAS
by Dr. Suess

Every Who Down in Who-ville
Liked Christmas a lot...
But the Grinch,Who lived just North of Who-ville,
Did NOT! The Grinch hated Christmas!
......
It could be that his head wasn't screwed on quite right.
It could be, perhaps, that his shoes were too tight.
But I think that the most likely reason of all
May have been that his heart was two sizes too small.
But,Whatever the reason,
His heart or his shoes,
He stood there on Christmas Eve,
hating the Whos,


.........
For, tomorrow, he knew...
...All the Who girls and boys
Would wake up bright and early.
They'd rush for their toys!
And then!
Oh, the noise!
Oh, the noise!
Noise!
Noise!
Noise!
That's one thing he hated!
The NOISE! NOISE! NOISE! NOISE!
Then the Whos, young and old, would sit down to a feast.
And they'd feast! And they'd feast!
And they'd FEAST! FEAST! FEAST! FEAST!
They would start on Who-pudding, and rare
Who-roast-beast
Which was something the Grinch couldn't stand in the least! And THEN
.......
They'd sing!
they'd sing!
AND they'd SING! SING! SING! SING!
And the more the Grinch thought of the Who-Christmas-Sing
The more the Grinch thought, "I must stop this whole thing!"
Why for fifty-three years
I've put up with it now!
MUST stop Christmas from coming!...But HOW?"
Then he got an idea!
An awful idea!
THE GRINCH
GOT A WONDERFUL, AWFUL IDEA!

Monday, December 17, 2007

The Dr. and her pants

Doctor Pistachio talked about having poorly fitting pants....

It reminded me that, I just barely learned how to wear them... I realized a few years ago that I was wearing them to low, and purchased an array of belts, so that I could wear then at proper navel, above navel level, as opposed to hanging off my ass.

Just figured I'd share...

Now those are 2 "The Mop" Esq posts.

Game of the spoiled

I've felt overall spoiled all my life. I just feel lucky, and I've gotten tons of un-needed crap.

But, if you quantified it, and threw some numbers out there as far as my siblings are concerned, my sister is probably more spoiled...

But the way the game is played... My sister sits around and talks about how unfair things are and how spoiled I am. But the point is to guilt people into giving her shit.

Put it this way I've spent $4000 lifetime on her and her family....

and me $200....

Though I am the spoiled one in the family... I don't get the most shit.. But I'll say I'm the most spoiled... But it's a personal wealth.

Trying to blog

I know this post will be sort of a go nowhere post.

I umn, been a oh... christmas

It's getting close, I'm so un-excited.

I do have friends who.. do want to spend time with me, and it's funny. I'm just not that interested. I don't even know when christmas is... ie what day of the week it is.

I still haven't watched Bad Santa, or love actually... I may pass on the latter, you know keira knightly is not a healthy weight... I'm concerned. Just a little linked tangent...

Isn't it interesting how... uninteresting this post is.

Oh, that is nice. looks like Crystal visited today.... Thanks Crystal.

I didn't have any coffee today.

There is a list of 4 or 5 friends who want to hang out... somehow I have to fit them in...

I'm avoiding most of it...

One person in a personal crisis, i'll have to visit...

When I was a kid I threw snowballs at Santa... Just letting you know.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Disschevled

Interesting weekend,

I did a ton of family stuff, I have a favorite cousin... a favorite yogi cousin. Who has some difficulties, but so curious... and interesting... and fun to talk to.

I hate the family stuff, but there are some moments, I don't mind sitting and talking to most my family... My dad is awful... He is only interested in himself, and never either helps any conversation, or with any project... With the exception of getting in the way.
It is interesting, something I learned, that my mothers family love to get together and talk/fight about things.. and enjoy each other's company.

Then communicating with my father is like, 3 hours of yelling. I say he is wrong, he get's his panties up his ass... doubldowns on his wrongness, then I have to act like a jackhammer on his head to get him to realize he is wrong... I told him once, WTF do you thing I would talk to you, if I wasn't trying to teach you something. As difficult as it is to communicate with you, Why would I go through all the misery if I didn't love my dad. But still it's the worst time in the world, because first he get's hurt, then he attacks you in a personal way, then you have to dismiss that and keep explaining 5 times the same thing, about how he is wrong.

It was interesting enough that when the weekend got to sunset, I realized the weekend was over and that it's time to work again next week...

But I feel Disschevled, It's weird sometimes I feel... Well not like "The mop" but like a dirty dishtowel....

I have about 30 appointments to keep between now and Christmas....

With all the crappy candy and other shit for the past week, I'm surprised I feel this well.....

I don't know where I'm going with this post... Just figured I'd share.
Here it is 2am.....

I don't want to sleep... I haven't even tried...Honestly, it's from too much sugar... Tis the season you know, Time to throw some stuff out.

I'm going through some Joseph Campbell again.... Damn it's good stuff. I should do the faith and reason thing again too.

I was just musing in my mind.... Was that the apex of the old blog?

I miss my bike, I'm going to have to get back to it....

More stuff in my head, "my health is suffering... just overall."
does that mean that I should find a new path... or does it just mean that I need to work some kinks out of it.

ugh.... bed with me...

Saturday, December 15, 2007

more... Holiday meltdown madness

So, 2 phone calls this week from people in meltdown holiday madness. I can't stand it, I love those people but... and I'm totaly understanding when they do it. It's not fun. What you do for friends... be there for the meltdowns, try and put them back together, or get them to put themselves together. I'm drained from it though.



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I just thought up the worst thing to do to some people , I should sign them up for the 419. give out their home phone and everything.

Fern Update

So, I umn.... think now I'm over watering it.... it's become a pride issue, I had it back on the mend then it relapsed... it's recieved some good sun.... but in my Ferver, i'm over watering it.

Bill O’Reilly Opera!

This is an operatic piece based on the sexual harassment complaint lodged against Fox News pundit, Bill O’Reilly

Thursday, December 13, 2007

*hack Hack* *cough cough*

This is obsene, I'm starting to suffer sleep deprivation.. 4 hours last nigh.... who knows tonigh... I should have gone out and purchased some new nyquil... but the effects were starting to fade.

I just want some good sleep to be honest....

and is it fair to this blog that I continue to blather on about more digestive tract issues.... I think I do it because I just, I just share what is bothering me... and I guess it has to do with this tract most of the time... I wonder if I have an inordaninant number of issues or if I obsess about them to much.....

Maybe if I just sleep in my chair....

If I could just get Whatever this is, out of my lungs.

Contemplating range bound.... This is a very neutral range for recent trading.
you want to hear my theory... we are range bound 1490 1470 for a while.... maybe short covering rally then back down.
Every time I say range bound it doesn't happen..... The recent impulse wave, should have a correction that will tell us what is up... Then maybe test the highs and then we will establish the pattern neutral, Up, Down.... Whatever... my positions are in the 1515 range.. so I'm risking... But betting the down side... This afternoons correction followed by another down leg, is the kind of trend maintenance I'm betting on... There is a ton of day trading going on..... and conservative trading.... But this is the True Volatility I expect out of this market, With the kind of action that will beat the crap out of most participants, to sideline most people... and create a real bear.
We shall see

running the numbers

down the most Basic materials, financials, Energy.....
RIO, FCX, POT, China precision Steel, Nova gold, china natural resources.

Petro china, Transocean(RIG), PBR, ... emerging markets energy and materials?

This is alot of profit taking...


down least.. Utilities, noncyclicals, capital goods

UPDATE:
you know what this is, smart money rolling out of the weak dollar plays, with the fed on hold, and the inflation numbers adding to acceptance that the fed is going to hold a bid on the dollar.

10% correction in materials/energy?

well we have our bear day

This isn't a particularly strong day....

Puts me in a Quandry...

3 leged move... That dam 250 point jump...I honestly think we go into some range bound action at 13200.... I'm not sure if it will be range bound 13000-13200 or 13200-13400... Damn... seems like based on history 13000 13200 would be more likly..
Erin Burnett is Manic today...... Someone mark a calender and we will see if she is Bi-Polar...

Maybe she is jacked up on sugar or something

BULLS and Bears

Russel is leading us down.....
Nasdaq leading us down....
(that is a deadly combo)

S&P is neutral to bullish
dow is almost fully bullish...

We know who wins this fight..

The Dow In theory, with it's industrial stregnth... Should be strongest in the economy.

peter Schiff is on bloomberg at 11... that will be a nice break from Dyllan.

Morning

Euro is still in the 1.46-7 range...

I'd check all the usual crap... but i'm tired.

Ok... Ok
3month libor is below 5
overnight is 4.3

Good news.....

Steroid report in 3.5 hours..(WTF is That about... Baseball?)

I'm still sick and it's got me on the ropes still....

The Charts.... Aren't as bearish as I had hoped......

Lets see how that develops... may be time to cover.

I'm not making it to lucid at 4 am, and I wish I had this morning, I have no idea what happened with retail Numbers, and seems like it was an interesting morning Liesman, explained how the auction worked, but I wasn't even vaguely lucid.

So... I'll be figuring that crap out all day.

The last 2 days, have been rough... But I have had a good week, all things taken into consideration..

I post to big picture, just for fun.... and wow, peoples undies have been in such a bunch... Especially mine.... I tell you that is interesting... If you look at the postings from the past 3 days... it just shows how freaked out everyone is.

You know what the difference may be today... we may not have as many Bulls selling their stock today.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

All out of Nyquil

I've realized Iv'e let my dvd's sprawl all over my office....I'm looking for Bad Santa....

I did little NyQuil, the bottle is empty... so guess I have to go to the store.... Tomorrow.. I used to have all my dvd's alphabetised, it's going to take a few hours to get them back in order.

So, after a week of feeling sick, I feel fat, and lazy..... I hope I get some exercise tomorrow.

Com'on sleep, don't fail me now.

Morning Lung Clearing

*caugh Caugh*

*hack Hack*

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

*caugh caugh*

The niquil tonight isn't doing it's magic... of course now that I've written it so many times it's "NyQuil".

Ok, some economics....

Your governments says that mainline inflation is 3.5%
and core inflation is 2.1%

so you ask, what is the difference....

Well apparently the Federal reserve(not actually Federal, but a private institution). after the Oil shock to inflation in the 70's started discounting food and energy.....

so here we are in the year 2007 and sure enough food and energy throws an increase of 40% to the inflation figure......

And there are plenty of people who think it's unreasonable to count inflation Ex-food and energy.... Hence Inflation Ex-Inflation...

So, our federal reserve tries, to maintain the Fed funds rate(rate they loan money) at 1% above inflation........
So, they also have announced that they will add food and energy.. into consideration.

Which means that the fed rate should go below 4.5%.... Well they cut today to 4.25%... Well they are trying... Basically this means that they are loaning money at a rate below inflation... Which encourages more Inflation...

Well there are those who think the 2.5% is a joke, and measure it in the 8-10% range...

Which means that things double in price every decade... Which is the way it is... Cars are 30-50K 20 years ago they were 10-20K.... (but apparently they go faster, or are nicer or more modern, so that is seen as deflationary(ya, whatever floats their boat)).

So I used a model of a candy bar as an example... when I was able to buy them they were a quarter 1980-1990, then .50 1990-2000.. now they are like a $1.50....

Honestly you have to account for size differences, there was a period when chocolate was expensive and they had to add fillers, and reduce sizes of some bars... And When they moved to .50 they made them slightly bigger... and now that they are $1.50... and are larger... But In my defence if you can depreciate a car cause it's faster, you have to inflate a candy bar because people are fatter.

I called this candy bar inflation.... then I looked it up and it's a metric people use.... I mean not credibly... but shit.

El Doctor responded

The whole economics/stock market thing has put a kink in my..... old mojo, I do get a whiff of it from time to time. and about half of my Interesting posts are about economics...

I'm a hoot when You get me going about stagflation. And inflation ex-inflation. and black helicopters...
so It means The personal stuff is here, then the stock stuff on the other blog... and I try and post interesting things, but I seriously have a ton of stress, and... It literally sucks my soul.

Unfortunately Keeping the blogs together and my new stress.. Just about undoes me.. But I'm getting back in the groove

I would think that my pathetic "comma" usage, and obscene use of ....... would give me away.
So, I'm not sure if she even reads this blog... But I got a post on the old blog, from dr. pistachio. and I'm not sure if she realizes that I'm the old mop guy.... I mean sure this blog sucks, and I post poorly these days, but that is mostly from stress and a lack of being as easy going as I used to be.

In other news, I feel like hell, I went back to bed for an hour this morning, and very much feel like a cold side of death.

interesting I'm breaking out in a warm sweat on my left side, and a cold one on my right side......

Monday, December 10, 2007

Christmas ....

Next person who shows up with candy, gets punched in the face... Just playing...

Time for NyQuil soon..

Couple of things I haven't watched

Bad Santa
scrooged

I should watch

Christmas vacation.

I would love to wake up in the morning refreshed.

Kicking it into Gear

So, everytime I kick things into High Rev... I hit a wall. Either exhaustion, or lack of focus from my conjestion.... I mean sure, I could hop myself up on uppers of spicy food....

Sunday, December 9, 2007

I tried to hit the ground running today.... and it was like hitting a brick wall. I am feeling better, but have yet to be ... Strong or whatever.

Cinderella man was great, should have been about 30 minutes longer.

I'm calling this post "waiting for the niquil to kick in" I umn.. didn't quite get the good sleep last night I received the previous nights... I suspect an outlier in my sample data.

I umnnn, All my life i've not been a morning person, and I've always wondered and worked on it... I read a book once that said "some people wake up exhilarated for a new day, energized and motivated to meet it with enthusiasm, then there are those who don't"

I heard a great line " I'm tired of this day, time to go to bed and get a new one."

I think that is similar...

Well time for the NyQuil to kick in.

Brother

I'm still conjested... I guess feeling better is relative... I don't want to be dead today.


The Fern.... It's in terable condition, I can't believe it's mine. It needs a few sunny days in the greenhouse. Unfortunatly all it gets are some overcast days... Hopefully we get some sun soon.

I actually cut it back at one point so I could monitor it's progress... Well not so much progress but regress.....

As green as my thumb is one would thing I could get it going, but Honestly there isn't enough sun in it's location.... that is my guess.

In all this I'm totaly hooked on TV... and I'm psyched to see "cinderella man" tonight.
The station agent

imdb

this was a good movie, and not in my John Carpenter, zombie movie vein.
What could be the best meteor display of the year will reach its peak on the night of Dec.13-14.

Stephen Edberg "If you have not seen a mighty Geminid fireball arcing gracefully across an expanse of sky, then you have not seen a meteor."

The Geminids get their name from the constellation of Gemini, the Twins, because the meteors appear to emanate from a spot in the sky near the bright star Castor in Gemini.

The Geminid Meteors are usually the most satisfying of all the annual showers, even surpassing the famous Perseids of August.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

More of something

I'm going to apply a mega dose of Pickled garlic to my flue, I am feeling better, and this should give me a good bost to my immune system.

Have I mentioned my dislike for Tom Cruse... There was a point when I realize he was choosing projects to work with some of hollywierds best; Rainman with Hoffman, Born on the fourth of July with Oliver Stone, Days of thunder with Duval, A few good men with Nickleson. I even liked Mission Impossible.... But he as slid into a down slide of ridiculously banal offerings... with a few interesting projects..... Vanilla Sky, magnolia.

That and his fascination with that Uber insane religion from that Sci-Fi writer... Talk about looking under all the wrong rocks for answers.... what's it called "BattlestarGalacticaOlogy"

I guess this is all the ramblings you get for the day.... Unless I write later.

My christmas bile

I umn..... Have I mentioned my love of NyQuil... That stuff just kicks ass!!! Drink, mellow for 30 minutes then sleep, I haven't slept that well in years.....

Right, so I'm trading the stock market, and it's never been so clear in my mind what a shell game our economy is. And how the wealthy are trying to do everything they can to convince you to spend money. It's funny our fed Chairman said months ago "if only Americans saved like Europeans.", But we have these huge disincentives to make people spend, we are a spending people, and we wouldn't know what to do if we didn't spend every penny we earned... not only that but created a credit line owing every penny we earn, straight to "Payments" at 22%.
Oh BTW this same Fed Chairman, is going to cut the fed rate next week, in order to make credit even more readily available... So you can save less.

And it all starts with "Baby Jesus Cries if you don't buy everyone you know a gift at Christmas."

I swear to god, I'd mint money if I built little hand made dogs and blocks, made simply, and durable. That you could pass from one generation to another.

"Multi Generational Toys" I'd call it... Then after making some money, Microsoft would push me out of my market share, then in efforts to cost cut, you would end up with the same Piece of shit toys we have now.....

Why? cause that is the American way.

So, I'm starting to rally

Oh...... "They Live" today

"Lifes a bitch, and she is back in heat!"

"My heros have always been cowboys"(which has a very hot Kate Capshaw, pre being ruined by spielburg(she got his cuties)).

"Just trying to get by without shoving"

......

I had that moment this morning or last night, when I was feeling a little better so I looked in a mirror, and realize I looked like... I'd been rode hard, and put up wet.

sorry I am watching "My heroes have always been cowboys", about rodeo before it got to be the celeb prittyboy fest it is these days.

...... I hate being sick, I remember being sick a few times, And I had been so sick and miserable, I always swore I would never take for granted, being well again.

I'm psyched about getting back to some exercise.

Friday, December 7, 2007

My wool socks have holes

... I hate breaking dates, it sucks... I feel bad (not for breaking the date but because I feel like crap)... So now I have to make a call, and say "ya, not coming over".. then It will lead to a 20 minute phone call, and y'all know how I love being on the phone for 20 minutes.

Update:
Call completed

smartly she had figured it out.

Now what do I do with my evening, I have enjoyed the monk marathon today, which gets interrupted by "elf"...

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Sick


Fun..... congested, upset stomach, dehydrated, tired, lack focus, Sinuses draining... everywhere...

And I can't sleep, feel like the world is closing in on me

hmmm May have to reach for the nyquil...

Oh and I'll be shoveling the drive tomorrow.

and no one gives me any sympathy....

It's all Nut up and persevere. I'll probably receive a bunch of calls demanding work tomorrow....

and even TV sucks.

did I mention achs and pains.
kid rock just jumped the shark-

Sing along please



Rock N Roll Jesus
Turn me up in the headphones
Been alotta cheap talk but I rock still
From the streets of Shanghai back to Knoxville
Sittin' high on a mountain top holdin' shop spreadin' the good news
Been alotta false prophets and quick hits
And a lot of unAmerican bullshit
But the time has come to settle and the devil's gonna make u choose
And just like a cold wind blowin' can u feel me comin' for u
Just like a freight train rollin' packed tight full of rhythm and blues
TestifyIt's a Rock revival
Don't need a suit
Ya don't need a bible
Get up and danceI'm gonna set you free yeah
Testify
It's all sex, drugs, rock n roll
A soul sensation that you can't control
And you can see I practice what I preach
I'm your rock n roll Jesus
Yes I amBeen alotta bling bling but it ain't real
And alotta new kings but I won't kneel
Sittin' high on a mountain top, holdin' shop singin' the raw dog blues
Like in old Mississippi's dirty cotton fields
Or in Detroit City's unforgotten wheels
It's the same song spinning but the same song's always been true
And I'm gonna take my roll cuz I ain't got nothin' to lose
And I'm gonna save your soul if it's really what you want me to do
[Repeat chorus]Get on your kneesI'm your rock n roll Jesus

Wierd

So is it wierd that I hate Xmas, and I'll still sit down and watch

"The Ref"

"christmas vacation"

and probably

"love actually"

I'm sick... and I'm giving it up for the week, Got the booty call for tomorrow, and I'm thinking I'm going to be sick. Is that wierd too... should I just show up, make her sick, and poorly perform?... I'm sure my performance wont be totaly poor. .. Maybe I can work out saturday.

Well, I'm going to shower, put on some warm clothing and watch "The Ref"

What have things come to

It's not that I hate Bush....

Ok I hate bush, but ... Maybe I'm different, and it's not that I'm short the market. We have to take our medicine in the economy. We set up this stupid system, and now that it's doing what it does, you just have to take it.

I have some cold/flu thing.

Ugh.... I just want the world to stop for a little bit.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

this is another I hate chrismast post....

So, I went out today, with the idea of maybe buying a book or something. I needed to get out. Out I went into the world, What is interesting is that, I never see anything I want... for some reason that impulse to buy, doesn't go off in me anymore. I could use some gloves, but.... I looked through the books, and remembered the last couple books I purchased, and realize how shitty they were, either self flagellation by the author, or just a rehash of old info covered elsewhere. I saw 5 different books that have been Flaunted out by T.V. for the past week, and I just remembered, that next year, most these books will be forgotten. DVD's of movies I didn't want to see in the first place.

And all these big box stores, so much distance from one to another, so much waist full driving, both in gas and in my time. It reminds me of the mall.

I was thinking about how much I'd like an Xbox360 or PlayStation or whatever.... Then I remembered that my original Xbox lasted 3 months before it broke, and they are having massive problems with them...

Consumerism... it just doesn't seem like it's worth it.

I keep thinking.. maybe I should make Little wood dogs or dump trucks, just out of blocks of wood and sell them, good durable toys. No more Consumer nonsense......

Even worse, the idea that if you hate this Stupid Selfish consumer driven, commercial holiday.... suddenly your a green asshole named "The Grinch".... I'm surprised that the consumer industry doesn't pay for that to be shown every week from November through December, sans commercials.

What I should do is ebay the shit I get for xmas off.... Think I could do it before I even get the crap?

How would the Ebay add go?

Buy My X-mas.... Dear Ebayer,

I usually receive 2 dvd's, one featuring a former SNL star (usually from the 70's 80's or early 90's) and another from the $5 bin with some has bin action star, ie... Mel Gibson or chuck Norris. Then Likely a calender($5), and a tool of some kind($5 range)....
I have informed all of my friends and kin that I am not doing xmas, but I did do this last year and still received my typical xmas(as you can see I don't exactly put people out much).
BUT... I think they all thought I was kidding last year, and managed to make me feel even worse by still giving me the same shit.

You may ask, on a personal note why I don't repackage and give the same gifts back this year, as I received last year, I could even rotate so it seemed like I actually got them something.(especially since last years remained unopened, and the year before's(I know this isn't a word) are unopened.)...
Well Maybe I'll repackage last years and the year before and ebay that too.

I Fucking Hate Christmas. only good thing about it is that Christmas means only 2 months till spring and feb has a false spring for a week or 2 .

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Indigestion

Oh... I promised no digestive tract talk...

I got a new wool hat today... I know, very exciting...

been some long days. I'm very exhausted.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Work

What a Monday....

so... Besides my usual obsession with the buying and selling if ridiculous pieces of paper.... I got a call to add more work to my life. So, It's 8pm my bedtime and overall I'm still working, I can get up in the morning and hopefully finish it off, but it's rough to procrastinate for me.

Also of note, "They Live" is on in 8 minutes.... I'm super Excited.

movie recomend

The Prize Winner of Defiance, Ohio

The Prize Winner of Defiance Ohio


if you get a chance, this is worth watching.... it's not my usual, lousy movie that I have a crush on the main actress movie either.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

My epic weekend of snow blowing,and shuvling

After the Saturday morning shoveling and blowing, I had to do the Saturday afternoon.... We got about 8-12 inches of snow. in the final stretch of the snow blowing, the blower quit, and after 3 hours of it... I have one hell of a drive... and I get my neighbors too(I rock as a neighbor.) So, I had to finish it off today, after doing some maintenance.

My next door neighbor is very blue collar, I think he and his wife are very good people. Though they are good people, they really are the kind of blue collar people in our world that suffer the most. He used to have a great job, got layed off about 2001, then has suffered through long series of shitty Jobs, paying between $10-$20 an hour, with no health coverage, and just barley found something that was decent. Hopefully it treats him right until he can retire, at say 70 or so? It's hard to find a person who works as hard as he does. But it has never really payed off for him.

and me with my incessant whining about if to take a real job or not.....

It was easy to get his drive, and I was actually psyched to put on a hat,boots, gloves and skarf. Put the MP3 Player onto Jazz mode, and Just Zen out for a few hours.
Evel knievel died


It's obvious that I'm a Lefty....

So, who do I support in 2008....

I asked myself that question yesterday, while snow blowing the drive for 3 hours.

The real question is who do I want to inherit the "Jobless Economy", Supported by big box stores and $12 4000 caorie meals... and opertunities to buy everything you never needed, that won't make you happy.... and a never ending war.

All Sliding into recession....

My choice of candidate... to inherit this Cornicopia of opertunity.......

Mit Romney...

Who else but some Doe headed Mormon.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

I have to push snow off the walk, again umn... Which I will now document as "My search for my Wool Hat"

I've looked in the closet, and the secondary closet...

I hated all the badges,... but dug this one.

Truth is ... YOU SURVIVED My NABloPoMO... 2007...
Or you didn't.

My days of "Yep... Tired today."... so thanks anyone who made it through with me.

Was it worth doing? I don't know... but I had some fun.

banks

so banks have this multitierd login now...

so I have to answer stupid questions...

One of which is "What is your favorite tv show."

I couldn't remember if I said "House." or "The Shield"... or did I put "Shield"

or is house now my favorite, and the shield was.....

Tired

Pushing snow devices is hard, and I have to do it again....

Umn...

Seems like a good day for a Christmas movie.... only a few weeks till x-mas hell.

Nice to be sweaty and Hyper-caffeinated.

Notes on a Saturday

..... Damn I like the weekend.

It has snowed like crazy here. I was remarking on my run ... Yesterday? how much I loved running as the seasons changed from fall to winter, it looks like a good day to go for a little winter run.

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...... Oh, Now I remember....
(a blog is like a cruel mistress that you have to answer to every day)

..... Damn now I have forgotten...

Oh, I slept in till 9am... It was super crazy... I caught a nap at 6pm last night then staid up until midnight... and I slept in.

Time to shovel some walks.

Friday, November 30, 2007

My Athiesum thing..

So, It does look like both

Skull and bones,

And the Masonic order.

Are based in Deism.

and that basically it's being Agnostic, only absolutely believing in god..

so, you believe in god, but all the bible, and other religion crap you don't believe in.

BUT, you also believe that religion is needed to control the masses.All Seeing Eye

There for you front for "God", but deep down your trying to maintain the Aristocracy. The enlightened ones, all seeing, elevated above the rest.

Some say that deep down some of them are actually atheists, and materialists.

Sorry, I'm just looking at these people... I'm a straight up atheist, but I'm not a materialist. I have a huge spiritual side.... But some fat white guy?

That is classic Anthropomorphism.

I made it through

National I have nothing better to do than blog month???

was that the name?

oh

National blog every day month.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Notes from someone elses life

(I've pelted this with dilbert cartoons to add to the hilarity)

*Big Office Meeting, at a science Research lab*

Big Wig " Ladies and gentleman, I'm going to need you all to turn out your pockets and empty the contents onto the table!."

*much shuffling, and the sounds of tons of keys hitting the table*

Big Wig, "Now we have found this note, and we suspect something amiss.... anyone involved needs to fess up immediately.."

Jimmy Zit Face " Sir, it was me that ate the last piece of Tiffanies Birthday Cake, that was left in the refrigerator.... It was really late, I was tired and trying to get all my samples done.. I just ate it.... I'm really sorry Tiffany, I'll take you out to lunch *sob sob* "

Big Wig, "Nope, this is by far more serious..... ladies and gentleman we found this note, and I'm going to pass it around *note shuffling*..... What it says, and I have a picture here on the overhead."

*overhead fan comes to life with a huge whirrr of a fan*

"I would have done a PowerPoint but I got a virus this morning when I opened up a picture of Anna Kornacova on my computer this morning.... But I digress....The note says "Youth medium in blue for faith."... Now we have combed our files for any Youth Medium... or Blue Medium projects, and can't find any... Management suspects that some of you have been working on a project privately to create a "Blue or youth Medium." for growing Cultures. As you all know this is a violation of your contracts, and any Revolutionary "Medium" development projects, belong to this company and we will rightly sue you for the patent.... we are going to need any materials about this project turned over immediately, and anyone involved is going to have to subjected to Immediate disciplinary action............. ANYONE????? NOW IS THE TIME TO COME CLEAN!!"

Author of note, "Umn Sir... that was an order for her Cousin, for a blouse for my daughter."

Big Wig, "er.... Umn... er....Ah.... Alright, carry on! Move along, nothing to see here.

More on sprint

The sprint stuff was mentioned because I paid my bill today....

now I have 4 phone calls from them, one on my home phone, saying that the payment didn't go through..... Now!!! I have a credit card statement and their web site saying that I have paid.

I'm psyched to get a phone call tomorrow....

Think I can get a free month out of them?

We shal see.

hehehe... I just checked, and you still can't get my plan.... I sort of .... well, I did a sneaky to get it, they had an offer that they hid from people, and they still don't offer as cheep a plan or and many minutes... that is funny.

i get 500 minutes free nights and weekends starting at 7 unlimited internet.... all for $30.

I just checked I used 4minutes last month.

I present this with caution, if you think about it, it's scary... but I just think people need to be care full with there money, not run up massive credit debt.

If you have a bad credit card 20%, for every 5 thousand you borrow, you pay $1000 per year for free to them.

I have a friend who purchased a house 4 years ago, and walked away selling the house, with enough money to pay her credit card bills off... but...see... if you generated 30K in equity, borrowing 5K a year, That is 1K the first year, 2K the second year, 3K the third and 4K the fourth. that is 10K in interest and ate up half the equity she was generating, the rest went to pay for what she had spent.

I Don't want to scare anyone, because humans are resilient... America is hyper-competative.. and it's not good to be a worrier.

Cell Phones

My Cell Phone is on sprint...

Yes, sprint sucks. The Data connection is great... so that makes up for the fact that phone calls on it suck.

My problem, Cell phone wise is that I hate the phone, with some minor exceptions you won't catch me on the phone; I'm sorry I have no interest in having long drawn out conversations with you. No, I just don't have the time to sit and chat. I use 20 minutes or 10 minutes a month. Some times I use more, like about every 6 months I get in a long conversation with someone, than won't end.

I got a great deal on a plan, it's hard to find free weekends and nights for under $50, which is what I want, free time plus a few hundred minutes... I think I got 500 or 600 minutes and am paying under $30. for a phone I don't really use.

So, Sprint... After I had the phone for a while and 5 people had the phone number. I started getting random calls, the second time I received one, I answered it. It was sprint..... and this is how stupid they think I am.

"Sir, if you sit down and spend 30 minutes answering some questions, we can offer you 30 minutes of free air time."

I hung up immediately....

Why? well to start off I will give them credit, it was during my free minutes so they were offering me free minutes.... But.... if I work for an hour for $10, I can pay for 200 minutes, and not 30. Second problem is that I have no desire to spend 30 minutes on the weekend or in the evening, talking to sprint....

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

NaBlogadifsaemonth

It's been interesting this month, trying to blog every day. There have been good days and bad days, and I've managed to keep up with my other blogs, and do something to this one. Sure, it's been rough, and some of the posts were better not written.

I was sitting thinking about how I should go to bed, but wanting some decompression.... I should call myself the decompression king.... Better put, "my underwear are so Tight!". I was thinking about how I should talk up the guitar, or smoking crack or something. It occurred to me that I should honestly Bang out some words to this blog......

and where is it going.....

I'm starting to wonder if this Train of thought has run off the tracks.... I keep hoping for a good documentary, I hate commercials....

So... I'm a little unsettled... I'm not a conspiracy person... But I have some new interesting ideas about social control, and different ideologies.....

Through all this intense time looking at the economy, and the forces that act on it... I do start suspecting that there is a war on the middle class by the upper class..... Mind blowing is that with a strong middle class our economy is stronger, and the wealthy get wealthier, no one spends like the lower middle class, as they purchase ATV's, TV's, Cars. Much beyond their means... But they spend every dollar they have.
and to run a business, or finance it... builds more wealth than for businesses that can't sell their goods.

hmmm

What to post today...

I wrote an email to my ex.... and she hasn't returned the message....

I stayed up too late last night 10pm, and paid for it this morning... I'm tired again.....

I could use beer.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Economics

As a kid, an early High school kid, I wanted to be rich, there for I felt you had to know about business, and took every business class offered in High school... But I took them as a freshman and sophomore. and then had to broaden my horizons after that. And it was getting boring we always covered the same things.

So, overall it was relegated to the back of my brain, as a sort of engineer that knew way to much about business. Which is a great combination, only when dealing with business men/woman, and they try and offer their 2 cents, and your about 50 cents further ahead.

"Well, this printers are cheep for $100 we can get one for every-ones desk. As opposed to 2 for $2000"

"yes, and that is an ink jet, instead of laser jets. The cost per copy is .01 as oppose to .10 which means instead of $1000 per year on ink, you will spend $10,000. And it doesn't even go to the Money put into servicing them."

But...... I Digress

I love Economics, how the Micro work into the Macro. and how you can use statistics to create models, and yet all off it comes down to "On the one hand you have X, on the other hand you have Y. Will X be greater than the influence of Y? I don't know.


And then the flow of money into and out of markets, how the markets function, and how each ant plays it's roll and overall the whole ant hill gets built.... or bees and beehives.

I certainly have reservations about the way I'm spending my time, Morally, ethically.

But in a way, I start feeling less like a pawn in the system, used and sacrificed for the larger pieces, or one of the more useful pieces on the board. To being a more self determined, unit.

I always just wanted to be a benefit to the world around me, but then I've felt like I'm more of a Sucker that the more elite, take advantage of my good nature, to further advance their means. Though I fell like I'm "Helping" or being a benefit. It's the Elite, who have mastered taking advantage of my good will, and instead of it helping less fortunate, it ends up helping the "more fortunate"... Which actually is Counter to my efforts,

Exhausted but...

seems like a good day. I'm super exhausted. Long long weeks.

For those of you who don't know, I've been trading the stock market for a while, then suddenly I realized I needed to be much more aggressive, and less passive. What sucks is how stressful it is, and how much time it takes. What is wild is how good I am at it. Honestly I hate it as a way to make money, but.... it seems to work.

It's about discipline, and math and psychology... i just tend to trust what I think, and it tends to work out.... I find it crazy and narcissistic to think that I know what is about to happen... or at least have some idea... it seems like a surreal dream some times.

I'm always referring to it as a shell game and musical chairs. Which it is, and I find it stupid that these lame pieces of paper are worth anything, but they are, and markets in the economy do serve a purpose...

I spend hours going over stock charts, and reading old news papers, to evaluate what has happened in the past, and what could happen.

I worry about the dollar collapse.

Monday, November 26, 2007

I don't want to go to bed.

It just means I have to wake up and watch that stupid market...

what would be interesting is if it crashed!!!!!!

it's early for this kind of X-mas Bile

runnnnnnnnen

I made it on a post market run... which was good, I was proud.

but The run sucked, lack of sleep fatigue, done did me in.

I'm now addicted to these puzzles

Click to Mix and Solve
If you can find the video link on this page,

This short piece talks about what the problem is in the Financial industry..

Then we will get derivative problems. 600 Trillion in them.

this is has been reported as the largest housing problem since the great depression.

Doh!!!

What a nerd I am, I had my callender marked for the testing of the Large Hadron Collider, which I schedualed over a year ago, and was supposd to be tested today. Now I looked into it and they are saying 2008..... BASTARDS.... I was hoping it would ignight armegeddon in some kind of Quatum Colaps.... Guess I HAVE TO WAIT TILL 2008..


You know if it gave me health insurance and I could work in europe, regular hours. I'd take a job sweeping floors for the Collider... I'd get to participate in Q&A though.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

It's here...

So, I have managed 4 moronic arguments with people.



1. I delivered some photo's to my mother of some of my nieces, and my brother thought they weren't good enough.

2. My sister Had very specific thoughts about how I should have delivered, said pictures...



Could Christmas please be over soon, it's just this bullshit that makes me think that religion, holidays, and commercialism, are the most evil things in the world.



As sweet children, Whine and beg, at the top of their lungs for all the Do dads and Who Haws in the world, And Guarantee the Who's don't actually sing, when they don't get their roast beast, and Who Horns.



Christmas is about Greed. I have nothing to do with any of it. The reason I'll get new bile this year, because I give up 3 $10 dvds, and get to not give out hundreds of dollars in other shit, to my Sisters and brothers, nieces and nephews. I get to avoid the shopping, and the bills, and all that great stuff, that Jesus says I should do, to help the U.S. Economy.




Not buying the latest gadgets at Xmas, makes the baby Jesus cry!Burnout



So, I was doing a search for images "baby Jesus cry"....



And if I were doing Xmas... this is what everyone would get.





The Emmy-winning scientist angered a few audience members when he criticized literal interpretation of the biblical verse Genesis 1:16, which reads: “God made two great lights — the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars.”He pointed out that the sun, the “greater light,” is but one of countless stars and that the “lesser light” is the moon, which really is not a light at all, rather a reflector of light.A number of audience members left the room at that point, visibly angered by what some perceived as irreverence.

Ishmael: Okay, you want to bowl for some big money, eh? But I'll lose my entire bonus check because I'm so *bombed*.

McKnight Bowl Bartender: You get that way from ginger ale?

Roy: Nah, he was sniffing glue in the parking lot.

Morning support run

I did a small run for Dr. Pistachio this morning, just to show some metiphisical support for her...

ok, I just wanted to do a little run, trying to get back to the wolvereen.

Laundry today.... other crap like that....

Honestly, My metabolisum is on fire, and I'm jacked up on coffee.

I'm ready to rip the Ears off a bear.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Athiest Journey

Not that I'm not already an atheist, Wierd to type that, I'd say I'm an Atheist with a Desire to be Agnostic. Of course that is my Romantic Nature, so my rational mind tells me Atheism is the magic.
As a Preface, I'm going to try and tag these posts about atheism as such, so I wouldn't be offended if you don't read... Whoever you are, I have no intention of convincing anyone, But I felt like it would be interesting to share my Journey with the blog. As I explore Atheism.


If God is willing to prevent evil, but is not able to Then He is not omnipotent.

If He is able, but not willing Then He is malevolent.

If He is both able and willing Then whence cometh evil?

If He is neither able nor willing Then why call Him God?"
- Epicurus.

My original deviation from God, came when a Sunday school teacher said "There were no Evolution."
At the age of 8, I asked "Well then why are there dinosaurs."
The response was, "There are no dinosaurs."

I thought that was the stupidest thing I'd ever heard, I'd seen the Fossils, and stared with fascination at them... My favorite was the Triceratops.

Well.... Work in progress.
Pricegrabber.com top lists of Xmas Consumerisum.

1. Nintendo Wii Console
2. Microsoft Zune 30GB Media Player - Brown
3. TomTom ONE 3rd Edition GPS
4. Activision Guitar Hero III Legends of Rock Bundle
5. Canon PowerShot SD1000 Silver Digital Camera
6. Microsoft Office 2004 Student and Teacher
7. Western Digital My Book Essential Edition External 500GB Hard Drive
8. Magellan Maestro 3100 GPS
9. Canon PowerShot SD750 Digital Camera
10. Canon EOS Regel XTi Black SLR Digital Camera

Top-Selling Product Categories on Black Friday
2007 Top Product Categories 2006 Top Product Categories
1. Plasma & LCD TVs 1. Digital Cameras
2. Digital Cameras 2. Plasma & LCD TVs
3. GPS Navigation Systems 3. MP3 Players
4. Toys 4. Toys
5. MP3 Players 5. Laptops
6. Laptops 6. Women's Handbags
7. Wii 7. GPS Navigation Systems
8. Shoes 8. Fine Jewelry & Watches
9. Women's Handbags 9. Living Room Furniture
10. Computer Flash Memory 10. Xbox 360

Suprising to me? the importance of woman's handbags.

The segnificance? woman wish you would buy them a handbag... Cause it ain't men doing the searching.

I wonder if you can search by popularity? then buy the little woman the most popular in your price range.
I have seen some impressive blogging out there, nothing like thanksgiving to give some people time to type out a few thoughts.

Mad Cabbie is on a tear for the past month after some medical issue, probably that He picked up in Ethiopia.

I successfully cyberstalked an Ex, seemed like a good weekend to catch up on my cyberstalking.... Like I said, fits of nostalgia.

I believe my soda can is filled.

Or at least not running on empty, as the analogy goes.

I still check on Becky Broeder from time to time, Super adventures in that woman's life.

I made it out for a run, sort of a 70% walrus run(I'm to hard on myself... but it is a little funny). It also was an actual run. I certainly stopped a couple times but only out of fear of overexerting my legs/knees.

Wow BYU is up 3-0... (today is the big BYU-Utah, rivalry game.)

But, I'm feeling Rested, and rejuvenated. I may throw in some meditation, jazz listening tonight.

Also, I miss eating healthy, and by this I just mean eating unbelievable amounts of fruit and vegetables, soup, and Tea. It's not like I'm eating fast food, I just eat a lot of sandwiches, and some nachos... other stuff.
"do you still think about her.?"

"I used to think about her every day,
Then every other,
once a week
now about twice a year I get a kick in the chest."

That is a brief dialgue from "Screamers".

Thanksgiving is a good weekend to be nostalgic.

As I sit, bored, jacked up on as much espresso, as it is wise to be..... Resting.

Xmas shopping

I went out looking for some stuff yesterday morning, not because I wanted something, but because I've never seen the Black Friday Orgy of comercialisum, first hand.

Though I did refuse to wait in any lines, maybe I'll save that for next Thanksgiving.

My generic hatred of this Holiday, and comercial horseshit, is still in tact.....but, as a shopping experience... I've never had a more plesant one, if you get past the mobs of doorbuster shoppers. honestly it's a nice quiet, peacfull experience, and even the salesman are to tired to bother you.

Of course I did get one "You better get it before it's gone."
"I have no doubt, I can live without it." I responded.

then one flirty little sales girl. "You should change your phone carier."
"if I did, it would cost me a hundred or so bucks.... and I'll save what? 5 bucks a month?"
.....
I honestly looked her deep in the eyes and said. "No thank you, I'm good."
Then she argued.
I replied "Thank you so much, But Don't argue with me."
and she slinked away with her tail between her legs.

I'm so in this anti-capitalisum funk, anti mainstream funk

Friday, November 23, 2007

almost bed time

it's been a long day, and I'm bored, to bored to even play video games. I should read.

I keep being tempted to read buisness news... and I'm trying to pretend I'm on vacation.

Locked in a vacancy

Oh... Fun Tom Leverett has posted some curiosities he as about blogging.

1. do you find that blogging tends to make you frame your life experiences in the same way that carrying a camera tends to make you frame the things you see- it makes you look at everything, and say, i wonder if i could blog about that?

When I was blogging aggressively, I remember actually moving through trains of thought, and lining them up in my mind, and re-affirming them in my memory, with the idea that it would be interesting to post to the blog. And much time in my day was spent(30 minutes) was consumed with thoughts about "blogging it". Then an hour or 2 were spent typing it out.
Now, it was much better Hobby or Recreation/ Way to pass the time than watching T.V.

2. do you engineer your posts in any way to attract more audience? if so, how? do you include words that will attract search engines? do you write posts about hot, frequently-searched public persona?

No, it was only interesting when one would make a pop culture reference, and people would, show up to read it. But the interesting part was how they had gotten to you, and how disconnected that was.... Case in point, I get many hits because I mention bowel movements, and apparently its a searched topic on the Internet, and I get some of those hits..... I do wonder if they are looking for "Secrets to effective bowel movements" or just have a fetish. but since they just search "bowel movements" I'll never know.


Further more, I do know that from my experience, the audience significantly makes the blog. I will blog differently depending on who I either know or suspect is reading. And gear the posts in that direction.... Interesting is my first blog I felt as though no one read, and just posted like I was writing a journal. then it startled me when someone actually posted a comment.

3. do you check who has come to visit you? do you notice what words they used to search and find you? do you notice how long they actually spent on your site? do you take the words they used, and use them again, or keep using them?

I answered this and the previous question like they were the same question roughly.

4. you know how important pictures are when you open up a site. do you choose your pictures in order to hold visitors, or do you just put in there whatever you can? do you look for free pictures, take them yourself, or shamelessly steal them from Google images like everyone else?

Of course I steal them, and information should be free, and pictures assuming I'm not using them for profit. I put pictures in to help people who are more visual, be aided in reading my blog. and it's interesting to Google image search random words and phrases, that are thematic with my post.

5. do you feel bad about bumping people from your blogroll? how important is a template to you when you visit blogs? do you really admire people who list thousands of blogs over there, or would you rather see someone who just has maybe ten or twelve best friends and relatives?

I'm to lazy to bump people from blog rolls, but when destructive processes happen, I just don't add them again.... and if they don't comment, or read your blog, why should they be on your blog roll.

6. do you really visit all those blogs you list under "daily reads" or "blogs i visit?" do you read them? this seems like a herculean task. how much time can a person invest in being in the citizen's media, a regular?

I have a RSS feed reader, and it makes this process very efficient. I have a list of the blogs I read, then the News sources I read, and the subsections of those news sources that I read.
Throughout the day, I read all the new posts of the blogs I frequent, followed by skimming through all the financial business news, followed by major general news stories, then politics, then cycling. As my day ends I take some time to catch up on a brief summary of the K-Fed, or Bradjalina, or whatever mindless entertainment news there is. I have so much news flowing in, I have to prioritize it based on the amount of available time I have.

All of this is after I wake up drink 2 quarts of water, make coffee, have breakfast, and read my local paper.(fortunately I usually have already read over half the paper the day before, since most local papers are just AP newswire stories anyways.)

7. has blogging changed your writing? your perspective? your alliances? your likes/dislikes? your politics? how has it affected the way you see things?

It does give me a chance to write and collect my thoughts during the day, it's almost a zen like process, blogging... ok, more a precursor to meditation... The interesting thing is that it does lead to some amount of accountability, in what I write. My bullshit has been called numerous times, and rightly so.

Eric
So I sit here thinking, I should do something fun, and yet. I don't actually want to do anything. I also think about how I don't want to run, and yet do.

so, I decide to do some blog reading... Wholly shit there are a ton of Utah bike blogs....

you go away for a year, and WTF happens, Blogs come out of the woodwork....

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Interesting stuff-athiesum and secrets

I have this documentary on atheism "Jonathan miller's brief history of disbelief", I've been working through this documentary for months, it's a universal cure for insomnia.... Except tonight... I got caught up in it..... Some documentaries, I'm not sure if I use them to cure insomnia, or if I'm actually trying to watch them and just keep falling asleep.

Interesting thing...(must note, I'm not here to discuss the accuracy) But as I perceived it, Deism was a theory that god existed but only as an initial catalyst, but but but...

The interesting part was that then it talked about how this belief by 17th and 18th century intellectuals, was never to be talked about in front of the Servants. Because religion was necessary to maintain, public order and "morality".
Instantly I realized that it's most probable that all secret societies, are based in this "Secret"....

So, you rise to the "Highest levels of "Scull and bones" or "The Masons"

The Veil is cast off....
Music plays

They reveal to you "There is no god", it's a shell game for Mass Control, by the intelligentsia.

Funny Shit...

I'm dying to run into a mason and give them the ol'

"*Wink Wink, Nod Nod* I'm in on the game too."

I wonder if the mormons carry the same secret, and when you become pope. There is like a secret book.....last page "It's all a Lie".


And it explains why Dubja used all this " Crusade" nonsense to go into Iraq, and create a U.S. military base, to steal the oil.

What I'm getting at, isn't that it's surprising to me. But that this is the original "shell game", and You can see, him a Cheney giving each other the "Secret Hand job" and being dumb enough to concoct this Moronic Scheme.

Unfathomable, through all this, has been that, As dumb as a box of Hammers as they (dick and Dubja) are. They Act Twice as Stupid. It just never made any sense to me...

Unless Under all their stupidity, was a deeper Less stupid motive..... None the less... Still Dumb as shit. But like 120 IQ Stupid, and not 80 IQ stupid.

all the while, narcissistic enough to think they are Geniuses.

Now my real question is... 'do the masses really need religion? I mean... They have T.V. Right?

I mean, that could even be the secret behind the devinci code, not shit about Mary being Jesus' wife...

I actually had that argument once..... "WTF are you talking about? Jesus and Mary were married? They didn't even Exist.... But somehow if these fictions are... They are married.

Easter bunny Too, I guess... yep.. Married to Briar Rabbit... shhhh keep it under your hat!!!

I may die, before a train of thought leaves the station

Ho hum, what a great way to start a post. I have stolen it, since that is the way I feel these days. I am sitting here hoping to become inspired.



Interesting thoughts I have had over past days:



1. I am reminded of driving to my sisters to have an awkward thanksgiving, with my Ex. It was awkward as far as my sister and family were concerned. I think they expected someones head to explode. I also remember not offering to bring anything, and I remember it being an unremarkable meal. Except the awkward silence....



Maybe that is just how I remember it.



2. I've been thinking about backpacking again, trying to scheme a way to haul the gear up fro a frozen evening of shitty food, in the woods. I always like to say "life is a journey" but I do seem to be in a hurry to get somewhere, or to accomplish something, most of the time.

3. I think I've decided I suffer a minor semi-functional version of autism. I do have my amazing math abilities, and I am tragically phobic of public gatherings, and being part of large groups. Poor socialization, Isn't' that fun? Of course I can be a hypochondriac too.

mmmmmm brined turkey trichinosis nap.

Maybe I'll watch "planes tranes and automobiles."