Haunted again

I don't know what it is; Could be an old friend who just got in touch, Could be a bit of the winter shut in madness, perhaps a little to much spicy food.

I don't usually go to sleep in the quiet, Just me and my thoughts. As a child I found it easier to fall asleep to some music, or something else. As an adult I'm more a fall asleep to the T.V. kind of person.. Usually a movie or a documentary. I know it's healthier sleep to have it in the stillness. Maybe it's wondering what the various sounds are, either the road outside, or the creaking of the house. Not that I'm scared... Just curious.

But, there I lay in the dark, remembrances of times past, old axes to grind. Many things, many sufferings, which will never be resolved to my satisfaction. Resolute that it came to an end and that that time is passed. Still it races through my mind, like a mouse stealing Cheese from my current life, but not to be seen. Just remnants....

A cup of Tea, some milk, ant-acids and Bang away at my keyboard, There is this woman I'm seeing, she is so desperate for acceptance and affection. Her biggest problem being, that because of her desire for acceptance, she has never "become". What ever it is that we all dig deep into, our inner strength inner core, she tends to try and appease, tries to be interested in what I'm interested in. Always maker her Unwhole, making her yet another Paper finger puppet in life, fighting herself, because she doesn't think she will be accepted....

Is it because of my resurgent cycling, that these thoughts come to my head, that my brain kicks into overdrive with missives(Main Entry: mis·sive Pronunciation: \ˈmi-siv\ Function: noun Etymology: Middle French lettre missive, literally, letter intended to be sent).

Strange thoughts from my innards.. When really, I just want to get to sleep....

Yoga For life

I treated myself to both 20 minutes on the rollers this morning...

Then I intended 40 minutes in the evening... I tried... Need to get out on the open road... But, take it easy, try not to hurt myself...

And..... then I picked up "yoga for Life" which is on some station... one of them new age ones....

Ok the dude who does this... Hella Fit... Big props to him... and that was one agressive workout... Wasn't quite ready for that... have to prep for it next time.

Funny thing was the theme..... PMS, bringing your biochemicals into balance(or some yoga way of saying that)... I'm feeling as though my PMS is non existant though... so I guess it worked. or not..

For those of you who don't know who larry kudlow is.. after Yoga for life is on, it's time for Larry and his economics of Narsicisum.... Yep.. it was a good day... I just can't take larry. he will fuck with my Chi..

how about just a nice healthy day....

nice to see us fight off a down 80.

any idea how bad I just want to lay in bed.... we get up 80 maybe I'll get excited...

Antidote to Hubris?

I typed out this email.... figured it was worth sharing.

My weeks have been ridiculous... I'm only just recovering............... for a brief second I was about to reflect on my life, then I thought better of it. I'm getting back to my regular workouts...

Oops.. guna happen

I keep working on improving my life, and it seems to be happening, except I keep feeling like I'm trying to catch lightning in a bottle... I seem to be able to do it.... and it's mystifying... I feel it's hubris with every breath.

I keep trying to take whatever the antidote to hubris is.... I guess it's modesty... Even then I feel it's false modesty...

Can I help with Brother Richard...

Is there some thing I can do, that would be beneficial?

I'm impressed by this email... so instead of extending it.... I'm going to let it be

Love you
Eric

(Brother Richard is an effort of prose)

Wolverine redux

re·dux adj.
Brought back; returned. Used postpositively.
[Latin : re-, re- + dux, leader; see duke.]

I've found myself epically bored this afternoon. A thought crossed my mind, maybe I can get back some of my former Literary..... Can it be called Literary.... Let me just call it Prose Magic.

Spent a good hour, re-Dialing in my bike. Giving it a good working over, and pulling off left over road grease. Getting it to properly Shift... Strangely when your front de-railouer(sp?) is tight... it tends to work better than when it's loose.... Who Knew.

The rollers, have been nice... I have yet to get a Great session with them, but I'm getting there... The trick is to hit that great pace, that and opening a window in the middle of winter to create a ride able indoor temperature.... it's riding indoors that you realize how much one sweats riding a bike... fortunately with wind it tends to keep you cool.

but I digress.... I'm writing here for all 3 of my audience, of course there are the few stock blog freaks that roll over from that magnificence.... They should find this blog interesting... or not.

Burke is working on "following his bliss"... Just to announce all of that to the world.... One would think that a guy who rides a bike and loves it... is already following it... Unfortunately he is planning on his retirement.... Say it ain't so!!!!.. but alas the only constant in the universe is change....

well, this little Prose is turning into vinets from everyone's life...... Wholly crap!!! ondeepbackground, the blog about the tennis playing athlete with the marginal eating disorder has gone........ Invite only..!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!! Say it Ain't So.......!!!!!! How did they know I was virtually stocking them.... Though... My theory was it was fully anonymous, but apparently there are now invitees..... enablers..... Damn... My life will be even more empty now that it already is, with virtual friends.

Well, as I come into the fitness program, I'm thinking about coming into a broader program, maybe push-ups and pull-ups, Some of that kind of stuff... get my Yogi cousin to help me with my own yoga program.... how would that be for an exercise program I'll never stick too... but it will give me a few cross training options...

Apparently obama won south Carolina....

Yep... Post going no where... some interesting Musings.. hmmm need to work on it....

I could use some pie.....

update

I wrote the phone number down etc.. to return the call

Yep... Sign number 2 of a bad client.... Yappie dogs in the background... Can't even stay quiet when she makes a phone call.

Emergencies

Someone called me and left a message about an "Emergency"... something I've learned over they years, is and "Emergency" for someone, 90% of the time tends to be more a panic attack than anything else. And panic attacks don't seem to be billable, unless your a psychiatrist.

You would think that Somehow I could exploit it for my gain, But the second worse part is people who have these manic attacks tend to be mostly unable or unwilling to pay, once the attack is over.

"$400 My god!!!!, I had no idea it would be so much to show up at my house sort out my issues on a moment's notice on a weekend!!! I won't pay it."

It is honestly barely worth returning the call.

well better nut up and do it.

hmmmm..

I'm trying to come up with a nice post.

Most of you know how liberal I am. With my Crazy Stock market Trading, it's been an interesting education for me..... Before you jump to the conclusion that I've gotten all Conservative. I tell you, I am seeing a balance between having a contested political debate, and a lop sided one...

Honestly I see an all republican government being as lousy for governing as an all democratic. either way there just becomes so much infighting, that it's corrosive to a healthy balance in our Government.

Australian open.

well we have had an interesting first Major tennis tournament of 2007. My girl Henin was knocked out, by sharapova who is having one hell of a great match. Andy Roddick, melted down in an early round... As I type Roger federer is struggling against Djokovic.... both Williams sisters were eliminated. Very interesting Tennis.....
The most amazing part is a Phenom from France named Tsonga, a great hope of Male French tennis. He looks like the bastard son of mohammad Ali.

Personal stuff.
Long damn month on the stock market... It's been good and I've made good money. It's been ridiculously stressful, not making it fun. I'd prefer if it were fun. I'd prefer the bull market. After these long weeks, I'm finally crashing from the stress. Licking my wounds so to speak. I need about 6 hours of Zen time, just to recollect myself. I'm not good to be around, because my decompression is ... well has been so intense. I keep trying to hasten the process.

All of this culminating with another epic throw down phone call with my old man.... the usual "you should....."
"No."
"But.......Bla bla bla bl... I want I want I want."
"ok, I can only give this."
"but bla bla bla bl"
"you are lucky I'm doing that."
"I want I want I want."
"Ok, these are the consequences for that..... are you willing to live with them."
"No, how if you live with the consequences."
"you see.. you make your life more difficult, not mine. It's very clear. I will X, if you want Y. then Z. do you want X? or Y and by consequence Z."
"but you just live with the consequences of what I want."
"No, You made the decision, the consequences are yours, not mine. It's called responsibility."

hate when I have throw the responsibility smack down on My father. then there is the repeated follow up phone calls, that I then ignore. WTF sometimes. Even worse is that I start deleting messages, Cause I don't give a shit.

You have to understand how I believe one lives, Either you are a benefit or a liability. Once you hit liability stage, You are in trouble... People don't realize that when they deal with me... are you a good positive thing? or not.

Politics.
I am disappointed that it will be Ken and Barbie for the election... I struggle to come up with a better candidate, I'd love to see McCain. McCain anyone, Romney makes me sick..... I like McCain.


Well Roger Feeder is trying to lose... Com on roger..... Oops he just rolled over.

Rollers

So, Still affter the rollers, I got a stoping starting 40 minutes today. I need to take it easy, I did 5 minutes in the morning just to get some blood flowing.

Oh, if you didn't know it. this morning the stock market tried very hard to crash into a free falling panic... it may not have happened. but.... it was very crazy. everyone trying to recreate the 87 panic.

primaries

I keep joking that it's going to be "Republican Ken" and "Democrat Barbie"... in a Puppet show of Political Clechés theater. Playing on a TV near you through November.

Hippo on a Tightrope

So, I haven't been on the bike for a few months....

Ya Ya what's wrong with you? I know I know.... Been a lot going on...

so, I pulled out the rollers today.....

it was a nice day, and I could have gone outside, but that would have made everything more difficult, for a first attempt....

Then I remembered how hard it was to ride rollers..... a few minutes later, some confidence and I managed to stay upright... only had one incident.

Last year as I realized that my balance and bike handling wasn't what it had been, I wished I could do some time on them to get that great bike handling going again... but oh well....

Good stuff... I like exercise...

so....

I just play with Elliot waves, and want to show people what I'm looking at. I honestly think it's .... Sketchy.... Which is why I refer to my TA as Chart-astrology

The way I trade is more to watch the moves, and try and catch as much of the 3rd wave as I can... and that way I don't' actually have to know where the overall market is going. I am just betting the reversals.

Within that construct I can make long term bets.

In the Bull Market the Mantra is to Buy the Dips, and in the Bear.... Sell the strength. In the early parts it should be safer to hold overnight(and long term) on the short side.

Another note: Say I was a big market mover..... What I would do is buy up the futures, hope to make a short covering rally... or even just some strength, which would give me a chance to get out of my positions higher than the current value.

Elliot Wave Fun.

This is the long Term Scale, since the October highs.... Remember after this Multi week 3rd wave, we still have a 5th wave.... Point being we will hit a false Bottom in the 1340-50s(Based on Elliot waves)

(not lost on my analysis, is that the target is equal to the Friday close(Also worth noting is that, My math isn't precise, since I don't actually look up the specific quote, and guesstimate it from the chart(how is that for disclosure of my sketchy Chartatology.))

This is the short term, The RSI(which I don't picture,but shows it's very hard for us to go much lower in the NearTerm)... I'm looking for a good correction(upmove), But maybe we push lower, either intraday or into the close, but only like 10-20 points or 50-100dow, Maybe we confirm the new low. Maybe this wave will look more like an ABC correction, with a day or 2 uptick. Smart me would wait for a short covering rally to open a new position, maybe a bullish day, and an up futures next day.... Which starts plunging.

My overall Thesis is that we are in the Third Wave(daily) of the Third wave(weekly) of the Third wave(monthly), Meaning Maybe the RSI will hit it's greatest value in this move. Greater than 11-12-2007 Which was the end of the third wave of the November move.

For those of you looking at super cycles, in a 6month to 1 year time frame, this could be the third wave of the first wave in a multi year move. But if this move compleates itself I'd expect the next wave to occur next october-november, and we trade choppy betwixed now and then.... Maybe.

Big Picture Bill Gates

At CES Bill Gates shows his massive vision for the future that shows why Microsoft is in it's dominant Visionary roll, predicts "devices will connect"....... Wow that is fucking amazing..... Eric Makes further Prediction, Devices connecting with Microsoft will regularly crash and have to be restarted, and users will have less control of products they purchased, and advertisers will have more control.

Morning Futures Up 60.....

Voting

I'm politicly active, and have been all my life. I'm not a Zellot, and I've not voted a few times, and resented it every time. Even last opertunity, there was a vote for a council member and some referendums, though it was minor to me, I skipped my opertunity and feel bad about it.

In the 90's I used to say "if you don't vote, you don't get to complain." I remember no shortage of people saying "well my guy didn't win."

Just one of two of the dumbest reasons not to vote.

1. My guy didn't win.... What a fucking loser attitude, what if we only played in games we knew we were going to win. And how would we learn to win, if we didn't lose.
2. Bullshit about my vote doesn't count, followed by bullshit about electoral college. Ok, there are tons of referendums, Tons of local elections. The idea that democrats don't come out to vote for City council, or mayor, or County positions.... Is fucking stupid, S.L. County is 50/50 dem republican.... on anything county wide, your vote counts Huge.

Now, let me just say that I think your fucking Lazy..... and self centered for not playing your had at democracy. I can give you 20 reasons why our democracy is Bullshit. But I'm not going to sit in my sandbox crying about it, and refuse to play, like I'm 4 years old. Realize that is what it is "Things aren't going my way, so I'm going home to suck my thumb"

Fucking Children.